Today is My Last Day

Well, today is it.  My last day of being in my 20's.  I can't say that I feel any different.  I sure as heck don't feel any older or wiser than I did when I turned 20, but then again, maybe knowing I'm not any wiser is evidence that I am. While I don't feel any different I can't help but be a little retrospective.  A lot has changed in ten years.  Instead of being a stupid kid, going to college and living with my parents. I now own a house, I'm married and a father of 2 small children.  Just 10 years ago, I didn't have any responsibilities at all, and I didn't want any.  Now I'm the primary provider for 3 other human beings.  When did this happen?  How did this happen?  Well, I guess I know how; but when did this happen?  It was just yesterday I was a senior going to Smithsburg High School, skipping and cutting as many classes as I could get away with.  It was just yesterday that I met the girl of my dreams.  Just yesterday that I woke up in my parents house.  Just yesterday I was a kid.

I wasn't one of those 20 year olds who went out partying every night.  In fact, I don't think I've ever been 'partying' in my 20's.  I've never been drunk, I didn't do anything special at all for when I turned 21.  I took a fairly straight path.  Met a girl, graduated high school, went to college, graduated college, married the girl I met in high school, bought a house, had kids, and here I am.  Some people might ask if I feel I've missed out on something, not going a little crazy in my early 20's.  I have to say no.  There is nothing more rewarding then to come home to your own family, to a house you had built, to a three year old who screams your name when you walk in the door and hugs your legs as hard as he can, to the first and only girl you have ever fallen in love with, to a smiling baby girl who only has 2 front teeth.  Nothing.  If I had gone out and 'had fun', I wouldn't be where I am today.  But I have to say, it is only by the grace of God that I made the decisions I have made that got me here.  I'm just not that smart.  I'm not saying that young people shouldn't go out, get a little crazy, and have fun.  I'm just saying that wasn't in the cards for me, and I don't regret that for a single moment.

I also started my business in this decade of my life.  It was the riskiest and smartest decision I have ever made.  I remember thinking when I started this that I would do it part-time.  That I would only work a couple of weekends a month, if I was lucky, and then maybe make enough to pay a little extra on my mortgage.  That was in 2005, here I am 4 years later and it's my full-time job.  It quickly became the part-time job that required my full-time attention.  alifestudio has been such a blessing to me and my family, way more than I can possibly describe in a blog setting, and my clients are to thank for that.  My clients have no idea how grateful I am to them.  They are the reason my family has food on the table, clothes on their backs, and a roof over their heads.  They are the best bosses I have ever had.  :)

So here I am.  The eve before my 30's and an entire decade of my life summarized in this post.  As I write these words flashes of memories are coming to me.  Some memories just to long to write, other's way to personal to write, but they are all equally valuable to me.  Those experiences are what make me who I am and will be.  Some were God given, some were self given, and some were from hell, but they formed me and helped me grow up from that stupid 19 going on 20 year old kid I was 10 years ago today.